And it is also pushing me to do things i would never do. I want a family really badly but im also scared i want get an erection when i have sex with a girl and im scared i wont enjoy it.
And at times i can imagine myself with a girl and other times with a guy. And the only other thing i used to do was wonder how big other guys were because i was afraid of my own size. i didnt think i was gay while i was having sex with him either. The last time was maybe last year and i stopped in the middle of it and went home it felt wrong and awkward. I kinda enjoyed it but at the same time i didnt. I used to have sex with a guy a few times. Can you suddenely turn gay out of no where or was my whole past a lie. i used to be turned on by girls and now nothing dont feel a thing. when i go out i see other men and i try to imagine myself with them, same thing with girls. Now all of a sudden about 2 months ago i started to think what if im gay. I am a 15 year old male and have always loved and wanted to have sex with girls.
